Acceptance, Courage, and Pretending
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One day I gathered myself and my four youngest to go exercise. I was meeting a couple of ladies, so there was some social benefit as well. I was very anxious about taking my kids with me and I didn’t know if it would be worth all the effort. I told myself, “take courage” and off we went.
My 4 month old began to wail. I gathered more courage ‘cause I really wanted to go home right then. I picked up my cranky baby, modified my movements and kept on going. I thought it was funny when my 5 year old asked, “Mom, why are you pretending?” I explained that I was doing my best and because I was taking care of the baby I had to exercise a little differently.
About 8 years ago, courage left me. I couldn’t find it. I couldn’t even wish for it. I didn’t even want to. I was dealing with a depression that was brought on by having hypothyroid.
Courage has slowly returned. There are times when I ask myself, “Christine, why are you pretending?” I take courage, modify my movements, and then lovingly respond, “You’re doing your best and because you’re doing God’s will you have to do things a little different.” and keep on going.
My 4 month old began to wail. I gathered more courage ‘cause I really wanted to go home right then. I picked up my cranky baby, modified my movements and kept on going. I thought it was funny when my 5 year old asked, “Mom, why are you pretending?” I explained that I was doing my best and because I was taking care of the baby I had to exercise a little differently.
About 8 years ago, courage left me. I couldn’t find it. I couldn’t even wish for it. I didn’t even want to. I was dealing with a depression that was brought on by having hypothyroid.
Courage has slowly returned. There are times when I ask myself, “Christine, why are you pretending?” I take courage, modify my movements, and then lovingly respond, “You’re doing your best and because you’re doing God’s will you have to do things a little different.” and keep on going.
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